Until Then…

Fear has never controlled me. In fact, facing and conquering it has always been quite the driving force in my life. Over the course of the last 30 years, this infatuation with fear and its ensuing adrenaline has taken many forms: diving into pools before I could swim, jumping off buildings without any kind of …

7 Ways To Secure A Good DNF

I have a 100 this weekend. I know I never wrote about the one I did in November. I have a story to share, but I'll get around to it. Anyway, about this race, I am a little sketched out because it's a full on pavement course. I'm confident I can handle it for the …

Walk the Line

A few months ago, the editor of a major running magazine spent a long time interviewing me for an article about addiction in running. I poured my heart out, but never saw it published. So I battled back and forth for awhile, torn between letting the story go, if I wanted to go there, yada …

Wanna talk toughness?

I've quit 3 ultras. THREE 1.) bethel hill moonlight boogie, my 2nd attempt at running 50 miles. (my first finish was a solo run a couple weeks prior, also in extremely high temps, and on the toughest hilliest roads around. 10 hour self supported finish.) @BHMB, I threw up - nonstop- for 6 miles straight. …

Staying Distracted, Lifting Weights, and a Facebook Rant

Everyone keeps asking me if I'm depressed. Ha. Well....Nah, I wouldn't say I'm depressed. I'm definitely not my chipper -bouncing off the walls- self. I think I'm just really DISTRACTED. I only get down during times when I feel like I should be running, or when I crave a run. Truth is, I haven't had …

New Direction

So after a day of sulking in pain, being stuck in bed watching old movies, THINKING, and PRAYING, and finally just sitting still for a few hours.. My wheels started turning. WHY would racing ultras not be in the works for me right now? I know why. Because it's self-serving. WHY is something self-serving not …

Epic Fail

(Insert TMI- men please navigate away from this page) In short, it wasn't my day. Friday night hit me with a massive and painful urinary tract infection. Saturday, 2 hours into the race, I started my period. I stopped in the bathroom after every other loop. 4 hours into the race, I started to feel …

Taper Things That SUCK.

I know. I keep talking about tapering. Whatev! I go back and forth between hating a taper, and loving a taper. Right now, I HATE the taper. 1.) PHANTOM PAINS: Sorry Beth McCurdy for constantly bringing up the fact that I'm having random pains in our conversations. I know it's probably annoying you.. why? BECAUSE …

Refined by Fire in the Fort Clinch Furnace

**Forgive me for not editing this thing. It's a rough read. I typed it on my phone, mainly in the middle of the night, and over the course of a few days with my kids constantly vying for my attention! I'll take a look at it again when I get to a computer, but I'm …