When I put on my shoes…
I put on my courage. I put on my strength. I focus on my goals, and my dreams–I put everything I hope to be deep inside of those two soles.
When I tie up my laces…
I tie up my insecurities. I tie up my doubts. I tie up who I used to be, and the past that still haunts me. I tie up every failure, big and small,…and double knot it so it won’t come undone.
When I hit the trail, running…
I feel every last bit of it–the love, the pain, the joy, the worries, the stress, the goals, the ambition, the sorrow, the drive–but I let it all slip away into the dirt beneath my feet. With every deliberate step, I’m a mile farther from who I used to be, and a mile closer to who I crave to be. But my feet pounding the Earth- that’s all that I can feel. No matter the pleasure or the pain, it somehow always feels right.
and…When it comes to an end…
I collapse in satisfaction. I wipe my brow, and breathe in deep. I soak it all in. I untie the knotted laces. I shake out that never ending flow of “dirt” that has seemingly collected over the years. I know they’re strong and sturdy. I know they can handle the abuse. So I toss the rugged old soles into a corner, and I go about my day. And there they’ll be waiting patiently…
…for another go at it tomorrow.
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wow! This is an amazing post! Great word-smithing!
thank you!! thanks for reading:)
I love the way you write. I feel the same about running through the trails! Thanks!
Thanks for reading!
WOW! Sensational. You are such an inspiration to me on a tremendously deep level. I adore you and your amazing writings. What is your next race? I’d love to meet up!
Thanks, RunFan. I still don’t know your name though!:)
this is great, you inspire me!
Thank you Toni! Glad you liked it!
So well said! You definitely have a gift for putting your feelings into words. I haven’t been able to run for 3 weeks and will most likely have to drop my first marathon attempt due to an injury, but your post has re-invigorated me to stay positive and focus on the time that I will once again be able to lace up my shoes – and it will be all the more sweeter. Thanks Ash!
Thanks Kent! Man that sucks about the marathon… What happened exactly? You sure you want be able to run anyway? I’ve done quite a few races sans training that I ran pretty decently during! Maybe you should still give it a go?
I developed hip bursitis: most likely from training like I was 20 or 30 years younger (I’m 58) – lesson learned! So not being able to bounce back from injury the way a younger man could, the healing process is very slow and the last thing I want to do is start back to quickly. I’m just thinking it may be wiser to sign up for spring marathon to keep me focused and motivated. After 40 years I’ve finally learned to “Crave the Run” and I don’t want to ruin it due to impatience.
Sorry to hear that. But, you’re really smart! With that kind of patience, no doubt you’ll get to your goal as soon as you are feeling better. I need some of your patience… can I borrow some?! 🙂
Awesome!!! Sums up a perfect run beautifully!
Thanks girl! & thx for the comment !!
Just beautiful! Much love… xo
Haha I was just reading your blog!!!! Thanks Jen:)
Anytime! You know this half-marathoning fairy is your greatest fan! (Sorry, can’t help myself, it’s like a compulsion…) 😉
HAHAHHA I love it!!!!!
I believe you summed up exactly what many in the ultra community feel in regard to running. Great post, Ash!
Aw thanks David! You pumped for the big run????
You have wonderful writing talent. Please consider a book someday. Thanks.
Ah man what a nice compliment!!! Thank you!!!
Great post Ashley. You do such a great job describing what you feel. . .and, what so many others feel but can’t put into words.
Hey thanks Jeremy! I just spit out whatever is in my brain, sometimes it works, often it doesnt LOL! Catch you on Twitter:)
Beautifully said! And I am loving all of your instagram photos, being immersed in nature while running is the best! 🙂 Have a great day girlie!
Aw thanks girl! Nice of you to comment! I’ve been enjoying your blog too!
Awesome! Couldn’t have said it better…
Thanks anji! How has your running been going?
awesome!
Thanks!:)
Good to see you’re still running (and writing)!
JOE! No way! Nice to hear from you again! Hows running going for you? Still with Brooks?
Running is going pretty well. I moved to Texas a few months ago to do a program with the Wounded Warrior Project, haven’t done much racing, but training is a million times better than in OH. And yep still with Brooks!
Awesome Joe! Good luck in your future endeavors!
Roofus is not a Doofus!
If roofus aint a doofus he ain’t roofus. Shut yo face!!!!!’
You need to write more, Baby! This stuff is way too good to keep to yourself! Very creative.
Aww I love it when you call me creative!!!!!!
Awesome post! And I love the new banner at the top of the page.
Awesome post! And I love the new banner at the top of the page!
Thanks Michelle!! I decided it was time for a makeover:)
Hey lady! Can’t wait to see you next weekend!! Text me soon 🙂
Hey ash! Can you text me a message with your name in it? I lost all of my contacts.
I love it! Great post, Ashley! Thanks for helping Beth rock out some miles at North Coast!
Thank you Jason! It was so fun joining her on that journey! Congrats on your performance at Jewel!